ugh...death of the Monkey dance!

this job is so going to kill me....i'm tiiiired! But, I need the money. I worked 12 hrs today. I have to dance like a monkey on mexico and mid rivers mall drive in saint peters every day. I can't do that! I mean hell...give me some days off or something! Fat chicks just can't do that

I also still don't have time for homework cause i'm tired. I'm also getting sick from the weather. I really doubt the guy that runs this liberty knows what its like to be a waver....ugh. I need to go to bed. Pops, head waver over at saint peters, isn't working. I have to work for him....my body is in sooo much pain right now. Its not my fault if i some how pass out on the side of mexico road tomorrow....I about fell into it today from exhaustion. Some people came by to see me act like a crazy fool (or monkey dance as i call it) and found me hugging the liberty tax sign, sitting down, and waving. oh! the guy that came by twice while he was at work yesterday and yelling "break it down!"...he came by today in his car then started jumping on the passenger's side and yelled "break it down". That guy is nuts.

anyway....bed! damn my body hurts.

downside to life

First off...I wanted to say what happened while waving today. I don't know if what they had on their car was legal...but...I was just being all strange and dancing funky to keep myself entertained and noticed like they want. I listen to the radio, so I don't do much but play with a sign on commercials. My post today was out on Mid Rivers Mall Drive in Saint Peters. I was playing with my sign cause I'm trying to learn how to sign spin. Sadly, I suck at being self taught. Next thing I hear over my music is a bull horn saying, "I love you!" Its gotta be pretty damn loud to play my headphones. I put down the sign i was holding and about fell over laughing. I continued practicing my spinning. I hear "Sping that sign!" it was so funny. I love a good sense of humor. I love seeing people be crazy or stupid. Just makes me laugh.

Tons of crazy stuff happened today when I was sign spinning. Wonder if I'll get in trouble for spinning that one guy in circles in the snow....he thought it was fun... hehe.

Anyway, I got home and thought for a bit. I'm behind in history cause I was sick last weeka nd other things going on. Mostly cause I was sick. Turns out I had a small sinus infection. Its starting to clear up. Tomorrow is thursday...homework is due friday. I haven't done anything cause I was hired on the fly. I have until sunday night to get everything done for both classes. I need to also email my teacher and tell her what is going on so i can get counted for last week. I have decided I have to put away my other activities and anything fun until I get caught up. After that, I still have to job hunt. Liberty isn't a permant thing. Its tax season only. In a month they will lower hours. That gives me a month to find a real job. I need to apply like crazy and try to be my best at interviews. I don't know why I'm bad at them. I hope maybe one is out there that does not wish to interview. Thats how i got verizon!

But yeah, life is gonna suck for a bit. In good news, Kristen is moving to missouri! I'm glad she decided to. She wants to attend a community college for a semester then go pre-vet at one of the schools in saint louis. She was going to go to Oregon, but that fell through. I offered her help here, cause I can't turn down a friend in need. Hopefully i'll get my phone back from shrub. Asked her to get it cause Shrub seems to be alright and has help. Just found out he got engaged to his on and off g/f. Suppose to get married this year. He doesn't need my help anymore. Kristen said she would pick it up. If not, i'll get mom to get it.

Its time to take my meds then to bed. I don't know if i work tomorrow. No one gave me my schedule. Ju has hers cause she's only at one location. I guess I'll have to check after I drop her off.

later!

Today!

Well....I got hired by liberty tax then worked from ten am to almost nine pm. Ju and I auditioned this morning. We will be working all the liberty taxes in saint charles county. So yeah....those who live in this area can watch my fat ass make a fool of myself. woot!

its good til i find a permanent job. Liberty tax doesn't keep most of their wavers past march. This liberty will work me full time. I have to balance school and job hunting with this. I may even work overtime from the sound of it. I may just carry my books with me when ju works earlier than me.

I'm going to rest. Ju has to be at work at nine am. I am still sick. i have to take my night meds. later

being sick kills your life

So I got a text from my roommate, Yoniel (sometimes i refer to him as Johnny). He was down at the ice house, so i figured why not. I went down there. I picked on him cause he was trying to get a woman, and ultimately failed. I go to the bars to just dance and have fun. I went up to the live band and danced around. I am thinking of going next weekend. Depends on how i feel. I had fun.

Today was bad though. I'm sicker than usual. I'm coughing like crazy and have diarrhea. Yeah, its gross...but its what is going on. I feel so bad right now. I gotta be at work in eight hours, but I am not alseep cause i can't breathe too well. I didn't get my homework done. I felt like shit each time i tried to read. I couldn't focus on my work. Well, I got english done except one assignment on the discussion board. I got jack shit done with history. I hope to catch up this week. I can't be behind in school again. It stressed me out too much last semester. Ugh being sick is going to drive me up the wall. I hate it.

I am getting severely tired. I think I am going to try to lay down. night!

i wish!

I was going to go out and have fun tonight. I been wanting to go dancing all week. But, I'm sick again. So, I'm stuck inside coughing my head off, half awake, and trying to do homework. So far, I got one assignment out of seven done. oh yeh! I have to have it all done tomorrow night though. This congestion is killing me.

The downside is i have been stuck at home all week cause I have not had any interview calls. Most of the ads this week were scams. I went to the mall yesterday to get applications. I will fill those out when I have the energy. School is first. I need to figure out how to do school during the week while balancing job hunting. Oh, i am going to try and be a liberty tax waver. I haven't done that in years. But, its work. They hire like crazy end of jan-march. They drop the bad wavers in march then hire back up in april. Its something til i find a real job. I interviewed for a new place in Saint Charles, Llewlyns. I really hope i get it. Seems a good place. They said it was just an intro interview and will be interviewing everyone next week.

My only really big pet peeve right now is that julie says she wants a job. I bring her applications, but she never fills them out. Every time I ask if she has it done when I turn mine in, she says, "I'll do it later." Jobs don't wait for you to be ready. Oh well. She got offered waver too, so that will get her off the couch and tv for now. She needs to remember to report her earnings and bonuses. Theres so much she needs to learn, but she thinks I'm being a bitch or bossy by telling her whats good to do. Advice from family is not something she takes. She takes it better from strangers.

anyway, i think I will lay down. I'm exhausted cause of being sick. I need to do my next reading assignment for english...if i wake up. Readjusting to starting school after moving isn't fun. I still have things to get from pin oak park too! oh well. I will do that when i have time.

Hope everything is going well for everyone!

feeling better

BJ came by. We joked, played pool, and watched movies. It was relaxing and fun. I'm feeling better. He always makes me  laugh so it takes off the stress.

blah

I'm becoming depressed. Its not cause of life. Its reasons I don't feel like naming. I'll deal with it and be fine later. Its nothing I can any do anything about.Hopefully I'll be okay soon.

I just started noticing I was doing things about how i was feeling that were wrong choices. I gotta break bad habits from long ago. It doesn' t help or deal with issues.

What am i doing? Living! Living well my friend....

So...its been almost a month since I updated. Guess i should. haha. It won't have everything cause I can't remember every detail, but I'll do my best. I decided to move back to missouri. I was so much happier in missouri than tennessee. Mom even agreed I should return. I found out that I could change my round trip ticket. I spent new years eve watching eddie izzard while preparing to leave. I decided that 2010 was my year and no one would take it away from me! I'm tired of playing the victim in life when I should be playing the champion/overcomer. I can't let my situations over take me. This is me taking charge of my life by going back to where I was happy. I left new years day and arrived jan 2nd in saint louis. The ride was interesting and scary at times. Some chick road with me all the way to nashville with lighter fluid and charcoal. You may think thats nothing....but she had matches she was playing with to burn toilet paper too! haha. I had a fun conversation with this one guy on the way to nashville. It got creepy when this old guy kept staring at me like a piece of meat....yeah....Nashville was alright. Just lots of waiting...as it always has been for the past five or so years. Nashvegas to STL was pretty quiet. I slept most of the way. I would wake up every so often. It was strange cause i was one of the few that was not headed to a military base! hehe. Now i know why those tickets were expensive. Tons of military heading out to a base in mo. Oh i did do something stupid, as usual. The stop before STL, i was hungry and got out to go to McD's....turned out they were closed. i ran out in 4 degree weather across a parking lot for a closed resturant...woot! go me!

I spent that morning waiting for Ju to wake up. She was at Yoniel's, aka Johnny, place living. I sat around the greyhound texting my friend bj, who lives out around hazelwood. Turns out he works night shift. He stayed up to chill with me til my ride got there. I found internet and got on that. Ju eventually called. I rode the train out to hanley station then waited in the cooooooold wind til Ju and Johnny got there. oh btw, he says to call him that. His name is close enough sounding to it. We road all the way to Lake Saint Louis while talking about how the living arrangements will work. I explained everything on my end while julie talked about where we were living. Its called Waterways. Very nice and quiet place, i must say.

I just spent the weekend relaxing. That monday I started job hunting and taking care of business. The week was kinda lazy. I didn't try as hard as I could have. But, there wasn't internet either. The week was nice cause it snowed. It was cold and around 10 or less. I didn't have many interviews. I mostly planned how to pay my bills when I got my financial aid, went to wentzville for housing, and decided with ju where we would be staying. She ended up at Johnny's over an incident where she was living. We really liked Johnny's and didn't have any luck anywhere else for two bedrooms. So we decided to stay. I would pay whatever to help ju since it was more than half of what she gets. I don't really have that many bills to pay anyway. Just the traffic stuff, getting my car fixed, and a loan...well along with my cell and rent. Johnny's been real helpful with showing me where things are and how to get around. I've learned a lot. I've been using hte club house for exercise. Oh yeah. I had this whole date thing lined up. I had two dates. They backed off. Something about me being different than girls here. Pretty much got scared. One guy thought i was just unsure or some shit. I mean this guy wanted me to give all to him and i ain't been on one date or known him that long? You so gotta be shitting me. I did eventually meet up with the guy. Oh lord his personality is fucked. I mean you sit and want some chick to commit to you but you have no interest in them at all? He should just consider fuck buddies or something. Cause no girl is gonna want anything more with something like that. But, my friend BJ heard my complaints. He offered to take me to avatar. I thought it was a friend thing. BJ is sweet and awesome! he proved it that night. He drives from hazelwood, while others say i live too far away, to the theater near shopNsave on the o'fallon side of where I live. (Oh yeah. one small area where I live is o'fallon and the rest is Lake Saint Louis. I use to live in the O'Fallon area in the trailer park) So, BJ gets there really early then buys my ticket! I've learned in life that somethings you can't refuse...cause i tried. "I have my money. I'll get the ticket. I am only ten mins away." "no. i'm buying it so you will have it when you get here." Wasn't going to argue. I get there. BJ is waiting. We talk about anime a bit. I just learned the day before t hat he loved anime. I told him anime was the magic word in my life. haha. I love cartoons, but i love anime more! I'm such a kid inside. He asks me to choose where to sit. I never had that option before. My friends have their preferences, so i've never cared. So i sat in the middle of the theater, literally. He sat two seats away. Btw, bj has gotta be like six foot tall or something. Damn i'm short! He doesn't have much room when he sits. haha. We talk and laugh. We make bad jokes until the movie starts. BJ gets comfy and moves the chairs then lays his head in my lap. I'm pretty layback so we just talk every so often during hte movie. He makes a lot of comments about random things in the movie, but I dont hear most of them. I spend most of the night laughing. We even chilled after the theater. It consisted of him getting in my little cavy, which i have cause i'm short. He's stuck with his knees in his chest and complains how small my car is. I laugh then drive him around hte parking lot then back to his car. He makes fun of my car more then gets in his. I figure I should be fair. I get in his car then talk about how its not right for short people. We have fun joking around for maybe an hour or so. It was a great night. I hope to go chill with him again. Oh and Johnny is separated from his wife, which is why he has rooms for rent. His kids came over. It was fun to meet them. Yohan is his own little world at two. You have to watch him close cause he's a fast one! Katherine is a creative little five year old. Shes emotional like most little girls, but she's tough and knows what she wants!

This week was fun! went to interviews but I caught up with minda weds!! We went out to icehouse cause they said they have karoke. That was wrong! Some other place on the other side of wentzville was hiring unexperienced bartenders. I went down there, low and behold it was karoke! They interviewed me. They thought i had a nice and fun personality, but hated that I had no bar experience. The manager gave me some great advice though. I'm determined to become a bartender. Mom has issues with that, but its a good and fun job. It makes good money too! So, why not! I love to have fun and get others to have fun. Anyway...I went back to minda after the interview then stole her purse and ran to the front. Minda comes up to me and says "There's a purse snatcher here!" I laugh while Ju comes up to join us in the front of the bar. The best thing comes on, cause it shows minda what i been trying to tell her about my sister. It was Devil went down to Georgia!! omg. if you know ju, you know she gets up and does her own version of clogging to any song like that. I told minda, "watch ju." She nods, not knowing what i mean til two mins later. Ju starts out bouncing around her seat then starts stomping. It gets to the intense parts of the song. Ju is up out of her chair and clogging her heart out. rofl. Minda about fell out of her chair laughing. She couldn't believe Ju was doing this in a small space in a bar. I told minda at the end of the song, "This is why we bring ju out to bars and clubs." Minda laughed and agreed. The rest of the night was hilarious just cause Ju was there. I went up to do Behind blue eyes by the Who. I started out til ju wanted to join. Ju has a low education level and can't read words right. hehe. So we're singing....well i'm trying....but i keep falling over laughing. Ju is completely into the whole singing thing. I was embarrassed at first cause I've never been to or done karoke irl. I've watched it in second life...and thats it. With ju up there, I was no longer embarrassed but i wasn't singing either. I was bent over at my waist laughing. rofl It was great! Minda and I spent the night just watching ju. She is pure entertainment.At the end of hte night, they played some dance mix. Ju started voguing! i was like "OMG" cause i haven't seen that since i was a kid! She was all over the joint too. She was even up in a chair and throwing her self in sexy poses over the chair. If she really knew what those poses were, i bet she wouldn't have done them. All i could think was "that girl has watched too many music videos." I loved the whole night though.

oh another event from this week was when the cable man came to hook up the internet. I was the last person he expected from what he said. He said most in the area tend to be stuck on theirselves. We talked about all kinds of things; sex, tats, books, movies, or whatever came to mind. It was fun. Man has the strangest tat in an interesting place. He thought I'd think it was strange. My reaction was it was interesting. I mean you gotta think of what it looks like. I just didn't like the fact he had an author's face tatted to his back. Thats a little out there on the fandom for me. I got my authors i love, but i doubt i'll tat them to my back. Oh yeah we also discussed tats we regret. Well he regretted. I told him ones i was going to do when i was young that i was glad i never had the money to do now. haha. So glad there's no "Exit Only" sign tatted to my ass! rofl. That was one of hundreds of ideas i had when i was younger. The cable guy said when he left, "This has made my day. You are not normal." So far, I've learned i'm not normal for mo. this is good and bad. So far its bad cause i haven't gotten a job! Oh well. I'm going to start being determined and pushing it. I have to have one starting feb. I do have a temp service putting in info for me. I think i'm going to start hitting STC (Saint charles county) place to see what work they have.

Lets see for this week, who knows. It feels like i've been here for a month! i haven't really. Onlyl two weeks, but its been awesome! Katherine is in visiting. She's a handful cause she is a bundle of energy. But, I think he's got her under control. She's still dealing with the whole separation. Some days its good for her and others its not. Me and ju have to get backgrounds for Waterways and Wentzville done. Minda is helping me get my car looked at to be fixed. Its drivable but i want it back in good condition. Lots going on in general. I'll try to stay updated.

I gotta get to my school stuff. I think english was due and i got too caught up to notice. I'm going through my homework and job hunting stuff today. That is priority. I got my stuff from my old place in Pin Oak...well most of it. We'll get the rest later. i still have to fix and sort that too. No rest for the weary! oh and i'm sick too! so that doesn't help. damn sinuses!

Hope your day is well!

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I'll catch up on rl when i can. I know mom's like "what are you doing????" haha.

I should get home. Looks like I maybe at the bar tonight or something. May just stay home. Roads are icy at night.