Pretty Happy

So, I know in life we have ideas of how things should go and what should happen. As we grow, we sometimes hold on to some ideas or let go of others. I've thought about the ideas i've had getting older. Most of the child-like ideas I had of life are gone. I stopped really even holding on to how my life should go or what I should do with it thats proper for me to do. My life has been complicated in its own way to cause me to realize and see that I can't plan no matter what. I just live day to day trying to get through that day....when the day ends....I remember the great things that happened and smile. I attempted to make plans, but I don't get upset if they fail. I take another route. I know as a kid and teen I always had happy thoughts of what I would call a "Pretty Happy" life. This was an idea of a perfect life I would have when I was an adult. I can say that its been no where near this idea. My adulthood has changed who I am completely. I don't see those ideas of "Pretty Happy" either. They were ideas of a young unexperienced person. I'm still unexperienced in many ways, but life is awesome like that. You are never without something you haven't done. My ideas now just are from what I've learned and what i know work for MY life. I like them.

With my education though, I dont' think that could be stopped by any changes. I've fought too long and hard to get here. If something goes bad, i can go from plan a to plan zzz for all i care. I want a career that makes me happy. Sign Language and working with Deaf does this. I will fight to the bone for this.

Everything else is up in the air. I dont' plan or care to. there are things I want and hope for, but I don't seek them out. I like them coming more naturally. I can think maybe one day....but maybe one day doesn't matter. What matters is now because its what I live in.