talk about getting screwed

I thought i was having a bad day with my sister til i got home. Yoniel, aka Johnny, was rushing through the apt complex as i was getting ready to park. I stopped in fear of getting hit. Johnny parks his car. I park mine then walk over to his. I walk over to his car to tease him about his driving. Turns out he's stressed out. his wife is threatening to take the kids out of the country cause he was having sex with girls and dating. Keep in mind, she's doing the same. She's threatening restraining orders, child support, taking the children to another country, and all kinds of things. Chick has got some control issues. Johnny can't seem to calm down from this.

His wife just seems to take over his mind and emotions with her threats. They are empty legally cause they aren't legally divorced or separated. He doesn't have to do a lot cause of it. I was checking the state laws. At the same time, he isn't fun and doesn't relax anymore cause of it. I feel so bad for johnny. He can do what he wants, but his wife just attacks him once he's starting to enjoy life. Its like she enjoys making him miserable.

good news!

I have calls every day just cause i went and had my resume on career builder! send out hopes and prayers i get something soon. I honestly can't job hunt this week cause of school work. I can only do my best inbetween catching up. Getting sick for two weeks really messed me up and its not easy to catch up with history as i thought.

Oh well. Other good news, I think I'm going to go to this country bar with my roommate and Ju this weekend. hehe. If anyone's watched julie clog, you know i'll be rolling on the ground or falling on a table laughing. I so wanna watch her dance to Devil went down to Georgia again! omg! that was hilarious. Though the posing later was just nuts!

anyway, time for bed. night!

OOOooOOOOoo

I just watched adding google gadgets to my blog...not a safe thing to hand me. I need to customize my blog first. Not sure what look I want yet. I guess I'll wait on all that. Maybe i'll forget about the gadgets by then. :: cackles ::

other things are getting better

whatever ju cooked has made me sick. The toilet is my best friend. I haven't left the bathroom for hours. Teaches me not to eat her cooking. Really need to get Yoniel to teach her to cook. I'm just thankful my lungs feel better...even if my ass won't in the morning. >.>

In other news, I been getting job calls since I started using career builder again. Thats the first time since I graduated high school that its worked! lord...haha.  I even got an interview just a few hours after I sent out a resume. Thats pretty good! I've been expanding my search and finding more resources. I'm using monster, craigslist, careerbuilder, and missouri career source (the one stop page). One stop is the best resource cause its a state page. its just not easy to search cause i have a wide variety that i'm willing to do.

Oh yeah still haven't done history homework in the sense of turning it in. Would have succeeded if it wasn't for that damn porkchop. I might as well pull my bed in here....haha. I'll turn in what i can tomorrow then tell the teacher all thats gone on so she can open the quizzes. I need to do english tomorrow too. I have to do week 2 of history tomorrow. Sunday i'll do this week, week 3, of history. oh joy the fun of balancing school, unemployment, and job hunting! Sometimes I wish I could do it julie's way, just hope a job drops into my lap and says "we'll pay yah good!" Of course we all know Ju's way doesn't always work.

anyway, I'm off. later.

discovering

Lots going on mentally. I think more goes on mentally than physically lately. haha.

I'm singing. That may sound weird to most. I don't sing, i mean really try to sing. I've been doing that. I'm slowly becoming comfortable with life. I think the hardest thing for me is that life has been so rough the past few years that I can't relax. I've always had to be serious and take care of business. I'm a carefree person inside. I've never been able to let loose until lately. Its hard to break out of my hardshell. I've been trying. I've been forcing myself to do things i've held myself back from doing for years. I hope to eventually do that

Another fun thing is I'm learning a lot about Saint Peters MO. A lot of jobs and applications I get are from that city. I've been driving around Saint Charles county and exploring as much as i can while job hunting. I'm learning different routes and how to get around. I couldn't do that last time cause I was so afraid of my car. I really like it out here. Its going to make me sad when I have to leave. Julie getting rejected from Wentzville means we have to move to middle missouri. I am hoping we head out that way soon. I know either way I move out to fulton by august, but I was hoping that wentzville would be my excuse to come back when I wanted. I guess it is good since Julie will be closer. Columbia is thirty mins nw of fulton. Jeff city is south of fulton. Its funny that this town holds a lot of important things for the deaf community and interpreters, but no one knows where it is. It is literally an hour away from wentzville. There is probably a shorter route, but I get lost too easy. I'll just take 70 there then go south. It seems to be a nice little town. All that is really there are colleges.

I need to do history homework. I really love my life here. I'll upload pictures on facebook and myspace later. I have come to realize nothing will settle with mom unless I'm in the South. I like MO. I plan on staying here as long as life will let me. I won't know after college. That depends on what is going on in my life or where my career takes me. (Hopefully by then I'll be a bartender. who knows what will happen in 2014!)

Night!

unemployed

I quit monday. I couldn't do it. Those who know me, know i have a cyst in my chest. To be exact, its in the right main stem....which is sorta important cause thats where your air enters from your esophagus. It hasn't acted up since the summer of '07, in anyway i can remember. Sometimes its something small but doesn't interfere with my life. The ones i remember consist of not being able to breathe, going to the hospital for treatment, and not wanting to do anything else for the rest of the day cause it scares me shitless >.> see mom! I do care....

Anyway, I have had a sinus infection for a while. I thought thats whats been going on. Saturday I woke up not able to breathe. I couldn't move cause I worked 12 hrs. My legs hurt like hell from jumping up and down like a monkey. (Didn't stop hurting til monday!) I called out pretty much the whole weekend. I went back to work monday. I couldn't breathe when i tried to do anything. All I could do was sit. My job required me to catch the attention of others through my actions. Pops told me to go home. I went home then decided to quit. I realized that being out in the cold was causing me to be worse. It is true too. I've felt better today. I slept a lot, but I don't feel like crap and can breathe better. I hate that I had to quit. But...it was quit or die trying to make money. I'm not desperate enough to kill myself. I'll go back if it gets warmer. Otherwise, i'm good being without a job. Julie is gonna try to help me. I am trying to help her budget but she doesn't get how that works. Maybe we'll see eye to eye in time.

In other news, Julie got rejected from wentzville for not paying rent on time. We are going to head out to columbia, jeff city, and fulton this month and next so that we can try to sign up for rent. It'll probably be easier there. I thought i'd show ju William Woods to see if she liked it, but she is considering cosmetology school. We shall see what happens there. There are a few out in those areas.

Imma go take a bath then head to bed. its 3 am and ju has to be at work by 11 am. I'm working on make sure she isn't late anymore. I will job hunt and do school work out in Saint Charles while she's working. Hopefully i'll find a job soon.

Hope everyone is doing well. and mom stop worrying! I'm fine. If you want me checked, you can pay for me to see Dr Rossem, my ct scans, and all the other fun work they do to me for a month on my checkups. >.> ugh i hate being poked like i'm an alien.

later!