unemployed

I quit monday. I couldn't do it. Those who know me, know i have a cyst in my chest. To be exact, its in the right main stem....which is sorta important cause thats where your air enters from your esophagus. It hasn't acted up since the summer of '07, in anyway i can remember. Sometimes its something small but doesn't interfere with my life. The ones i remember consist of not being able to breathe, going to the hospital for treatment, and not wanting to do anything else for the rest of the day cause it scares me shitless >.> see mom! I do care....

Anyway, I have had a sinus infection for a while. I thought thats whats been going on. Saturday I woke up not able to breathe. I couldn't move cause I worked 12 hrs. My legs hurt like hell from jumping up and down like a monkey. (Didn't stop hurting til monday!) I called out pretty much the whole weekend. I went back to work monday. I couldn't breathe when i tried to do anything. All I could do was sit. My job required me to catch the attention of others through my actions. Pops told me to go home. I went home then decided to quit. I realized that being out in the cold was causing me to be worse. It is true too. I've felt better today. I slept a lot, but I don't feel like crap and can breathe better. I hate that I had to quit. But...it was quit or die trying to make money. I'm not desperate enough to kill myself. I'll go back if it gets warmer. Otherwise, i'm good being without a job. Julie is gonna try to help me. I am trying to help her budget but she doesn't get how that works. Maybe we'll see eye to eye in time.

In other news, Julie got rejected from wentzville for not paying rent on time. We are going to head out to columbia, jeff city, and fulton this month and next so that we can try to sign up for rent. It'll probably be easier there. I thought i'd show ju William Woods to see if she liked it, but she is considering cosmetology school. We shall see what happens there. There are a few out in those areas.

Imma go take a bath then head to bed. its 3 am and ju has to be at work by 11 am. I'm working on make sure she isn't late anymore. I will job hunt and do school work out in Saint Charles while she's working. Hopefully i'll find a job soon.

Hope everyone is doing well. and mom stop worrying! I'm fine. If you want me checked, you can pay for me to see Dr Rossem, my ct scans, and all the other fun work they do to me for a month on my checkups. >.> ugh i hate being poked like i'm an alien.

later!