discovering

Lots going on mentally. I think more goes on mentally than physically lately. haha.

I'm singing. That may sound weird to most. I don't sing, i mean really try to sing. I've been doing that. I'm slowly becoming comfortable with life. I think the hardest thing for me is that life has been so rough the past few years that I can't relax. I've always had to be serious and take care of business. I'm a carefree person inside. I've never been able to let loose until lately. Its hard to break out of my hardshell. I've been trying. I've been forcing myself to do things i've held myself back from doing for years. I hope to eventually do that

Another fun thing is I'm learning a lot about Saint Peters MO. A lot of jobs and applications I get are from that city. I've been driving around Saint Charles county and exploring as much as i can while job hunting. I'm learning different routes and how to get around. I couldn't do that last time cause I was so afraid of my car. I really like it out here. Its going to make me sad when I have to leave. Julie getting rejected from Wentzville means we have to move to middle missouri. I am hoping we head out that way soon. I know either way I move out to fulton by august, but I was hoping that wentzville would be my excuse to come back when I wanted. I guess it is good since Julie will be closer. Columbia is thirty mins nw of fulton. Jeff city is south of fulton. Its funny that this town holds a lot of important things for the deaf community and interpreters, but no one knows where it is. It is literally an hour away from wentzville. There is probably a shorter route, but I get lost too easy. I'll just take 70 there then go south. It seems to be a nice little town. All that is really there are colleges.

I need to do history homework. I really love my life here. I'll upload pictures on facebook and myspace later. I have come to realize nothing will settle with mom unless I'm in the South. I like MO. I plan on staying here as long as life will let me. I won't know after college. That depends on what is going on in my life or where my career takes me. (Hopefully by then I'll be a bartender. who knows what will happen in 2014!)

Night!