What I love

So i been thinkin on some things lately cause they occur and I was talkin to my online friend cara about it the other night when we were discussing her hubby.





The above videos I like for the reason of there is so much passion for what they want. They are willing to fight for what they want, even if there's a chance of losing...at least they tried everything they could. I love passion in people. Its amazing what it does to them and what they do for what they are passionate about.

Cara and I were talking about men and what we like. We both agreed men must be intelligent. We both loved a good nerd, but many of them tend to be easily scared. She married someone who was smart but he went for what he wanted. He chased his desires. He knew what he want and he was always honest. She loved it about him. She said his only downside is he didn't know how to use a computer and didn't care to find out how. She said with all he offers the last bit was small in comparison to who he was. She also talked about the desire to be wanted...every woman wants to know she is wanted or else she feels abandoned. I think its true. Its a good feeling. For me the idea of feeling wanted comes from many things. Mine takes a little angle away from cara at that point. She goes by how she feels and emotion of the other person. Its actions of a person for me. The things they do in my worst times or when i do things against them shows me their desire to want me. The worst times that we have are a true test of who we are and the relationships we have.

I want someone who knows what they want, are passionate, understanding, strong minded, reasonable, honest, kind, good hearted, has a great personality, a sense of humor, a lot of patience, and many other things that are required to keep up with me. They need two key things too.....the desire to fight and ability to take up a challenge. I can be a bitch and a challenge to handle. Thats where the patience comes in handy. I have things that are unstable about me, mostly stress when it makes me emotional. I lose my ability to reason during those times. The two key things help during that time cause I can just walk off and say screw it or question them in every way with my analytical mind. It'd be nice to have someone who understands my loves of dance, music, and crafts. Just....don't want them to do crafts....thats creepy. Okay pottery is fine but you take up scrap booking and we gotta talk about your preferences in life. haha. I love how it feels when someone knows me and understands me well. I feel so comfortable and at home. I feel there's nothing to worry about. I also know they will be able to handle my unreasonable times and bring my ass to the ground, like my best friend does.....but she kinda hits me with random stuff that hurts....less pain would be good. :D

Over most of my life, i've chased people to create friendships and what not with me. I did what i could to please them. I even used money in elementary school to bribe into friends for a day. I became possessive in middle school of those friends i had....which was few cause we moved too much to keep them and i'm the worst letter writer known to man. I'll write then never send it.I still have my forwards for where i live now. Never mailed them. Thats why email is awesome to me. Over the past few years, I've given up chasing, impressing, and what not. I just don't care. It really doesn't matter anymore what others think. You accept me or walk off. When it comes to a significant other, it would be obvious cause i'm not going to chase. I'm going to be me and enjoy life. Its their choice of what they will do....just be prepared of how i may react. If you can handle the storm, you may be able to hang on. I've scared a few men over the years on purpose. They walked off far too easily. Guess not everyone can see through the crap i throw out there. hehe.

And yes, I test everything....even when no one knows it.