ugh

Last night, I was sure I would stay in tn. But, mom and doug won't stop bitching about money. Its all they talk about. There's more to life than that. They also bitch about my room and five hundred and fifty million other things. Its driving me nuts. I just want to be left alone to do things my way. Its not like i have the resources to clean this room. I mean there's ju's stuff in a corner and a dresser. I have no room for my things or to sort them.

I'm missing mo more and more. I did things my way. I am looking around to return cause some of the crap i'm going through is just plain bullshit. I am not going to make a final decision though. I have an interview tomorrow and things to take care of. I may just wait til I get to mo to decide. I'll know whats succeeded and failed in tn then decide from that.

I'm just damn tired of being treated like some ignorant kid. I have a dirty mouth. deal with it. its who i am. I say stuff repeatedly and its my way of being me. I work and do things a certain way cause I always have. Its a long process to break. I been working on breaking living out of habit a long time. Its got a long way to go.

This is all reminding me why i went to mo instead of living at mom's.

i'm going to just chill in my room today. fuck everything else cause i took a fuc'it'all pill.