what to do....

Okay I'm suppose to be in tn til may. Each day that passes....I still want to be in mo. There are ways around what I'm doing so i can be in mo while finishing up what I need to do thanks to mecc. But the question is, which is wiser to do? I miss mo. They have jobs and a life for me there. I had a rough time but it was getting better. Talking to ju today reminded me that I could go back and share a place with her. I have my car and everything there. I could even have a job.

I still feel like i have responsibilities here. I want to get the cocktail server position and the child care positions. Professional child care will provide me with a lead into some sort of start into that world, as will the cocktail server. I want to take advantage of the cpa....but I can also do that at home too. I'm just not sure yet. There's so much to take care of first before I decide. Angel comes first. I need to find out if the school is open next week so we can get things taken care of before i leave to mo. It'll be the following tuesday that I leave. I have to get everything done for the child care. I have to make sure everything is taken care of for the place in Wentzville. I need to find someone to change my oil so I can eventually go to columbia with Ju to apply with that organization. They are back up for the place in Wenzville. Eastern mo has no options outside of Wentzville. I spent a month calling around. They all said one to two years in saint charles county. The others just said "Sorry we're closed for an unknown amount of time. Check in about a year." This is not fun. The group in Columbia will look for her a place throughout middle mo. Outside of that, ju is trying. We have so much to take care of....I feel bad cause I'm not there to help her. She gets lost easy and has no one to help her. This wasn't how i planned it. Its just how it happened.

Ugh the job offers here vs saint charles county nag me. There are literally none, but tons in Saint Charles Co for me. I seen them from 10-15/hr. We NEVER get that here in tn.

:: sighs :: I guess I'll miss mo til i go back...then miss it again when i leave til i return again. So much to do....too long for to want to wait. We shall see though. I can't says being in tn is all bad cause I have Hardin for math. she is very easy. Its why i didn't mind going to school on campus last spring.