A little fun for you all

A paraprosdokian is a figure of speech in which the latter part of a sentence or phrase is surprising or unexpected in a way that causes the reader or listener to re frame or reinterpret the first part.  It is frequently used for humorous or dramatic effect, sometimes producing an anticlimax.

I asked God for a bike, but I know God doesn't work that way.  So I stole a bike and asked for forgiveness.

Do not argue with an idiot.  He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience.

I want to die peacefully in my sleep, like my father.  Not screaming and terrified like his passengers.

Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.

The last thing I want to do is hurt you,. But it's still on the list. 

Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

If I agreed with you we'd both be wrong.

We never really grow up, we only learn how to act in public.

War does not determine who is right - only who is left.

Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit; Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad.

The early bird might get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

Evening news is where they begin with 'Good evening', and then proceed to tell you why it isn't.

To steal ideas from one person is plagiarism. To steal from many is research.

A bus station is where a bus stops. A train station is where a train stops. On my desk, I have a work station.

How is it one careless match can start a forest fire, but it takes a whole box to start a campfire?

Some people are like Slinkies ... not really good for anything, but you can't help smiling when you see one tumble down the stairs.

Dolphins are so smart that within a few weeks of captivity, they can train people to stand on the very edge of the pool and throw them fish.

I thought I wanted a career, turns out I just wanted pay checks.

A bank is a place that will lend you money, if you can prove that you don't need it.

Whenever I fill out an application, in the part that says "If an emergency, notify:" I put "DOCTOR".

I didn't say it was your fault, I said I was blaming you.

Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?

Women will never be equal to men until they can walk down the street with a bald head and a beer gut, and still think they are sexy.

Why do Americans choose from just two people to run for president and 50 for Miss America ?

Behind every successful man is his woman.  Behind the fall of a successful man is usually another woman.

A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

You do not need a parachute to skydive. You only need a parachute to skydive twice.

The voices in my head may not be real, but they have some good ideas!

Always borrow money from a pessimist. He won't expect it back.

A diplomat is someone who can tell you to go to hell in such a way that you will look forward to the trip.

Hospitality:  making your guests feel like they're at home, even if you wish they were.

Money can't buy happiness, but it sure makes misery easier to live with.

I discovered I scream the same way whether I'm about to be devoured by a great white shark or if a piece of seaweed touches my foot.

Some cause happiness wherever they go.  Others, whenever they go.

I used to be indecisive.  Now I'm not sure.

I always take life with a grain of salt, plus a slice of lemon, and a shot of tequila.

When tempted to fight fire with fire, remember that the Fire Department usually uses water.

You're never too old to learn something stupid.

To be sure of hitting the target, shoot first and call whatever you hit the "target".

Nostalgia isn't what it used to be.

Some people hear voices. Some see invisible people. Others have no imagination whatsoever.

A bus is a vehicle that runs twice as fast when you are after it as when you are in it.

If you are supposed to learn from your mistakes, why do some people have more than one child?

Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine

my birthday

So i figured my birthday was going to be quite boring since i'm far away. Turns out the ability of technology is amazing at distances. I expected fb posts. Some were awesome and others were just the shiznit. As usual, angles did the best happy birthday of the day! second best gift today! Sorry, I know you usually win first, but you got topped....and no not in the way you described or in the way you prefer. XD though you should ask james to help you with the way you prefer.

I logged online this morning. People on skype were wishing my happy birthday all around. It was fun an they continued so in second life. People get around fast from skype to sl! (btw majority of my skype are people in sl) Cara gave me the best card! i laughed and couldn't stop

So i went to lunch then went to the info office. felt like self appreciation without technology so i said "its my birthday" Got wished happy bday a few times then realized it was noon XD ran to my dorm cause i had an exam in an hour. I turn on my comp with messages! There was a surprise while i was gone! I was excited about said surprise!! But seems something happened and it poofed. I did a few things to get ready to log off and prepare. Said surprise popped in again! OMG! I was excited. Best present today! oh to linars and cara, I didn't get my ass beat! XD its been reserved for a 'regular day'. :: gets ducks out and carries them :: shhhhh. its our secret! Rest of the day was good. Went to my exam and got the standard history evil eye (this one cause i was reasonably late...got locked out and sat for ten mins cause i felt rude knocking...til i realized 'this is my final' so i jiggled the handle). Didn't finish cause i got caught up in what i was writing. Went back to my dorm and just chilled. I had fun though. That was the best part. i expected it to be so boring, but it was fun. I still want some of that cool whip angles! bend over!!

The whole day was awesome. I just have to say i have the best family and friends (Whether online or offline friends). Thank you all for making an expected boring bday wonderful!

side effects of my obesity

Many who know me now a days know I'm obese. I'm only 100 or so over, but i've been this far over weight for years. I've started to see lately that I am suffering the side effects of this. My heart and body cant take it anymore. Right now, I'm laying in bed on the last day of school because it hurts. I've told one teacher on the way out of the interpreting dept i won't be in class. I will be emailing the other two classes i have left. Dang my ASL 1 teacher was right about going home and resting. Ugh I hate pain.

I've got a plan and hopefully help to lose the weight. As long as I dont have to worry about work for the next year I can do it. I still have my information from ETSU about weight loss and how to do it. So hopefully i can start. I even got a weight loss buddy so i won't feel silly! XD Hey i didn't have to worry about this stuff when i was young. I miss when i was able to walk for seven hours. (Did that once to give a book to someone. Was a stupid idea, but i had plenty back then haha.)

Hopefully all this will work out. for now, i need to relax til the pain goes away. I'm goign to take some pain reliever now. later

College in your late twenties

So i know i don't write in this like i should due to school being a bit more than i thought. You start to realize the longer you have been out of school and in the work force that it doesn't come as easy as it use to. I don't even remember how to write a proper essay! haha. I have been meaning to write a few things so while i'm relaxing from cleaning, I'll start.

When i came to woods, I wasn't so sure if i really wanted to go into deaf interpreting. I'm excellent on second guessing myself and wanting to be sure. But, the only way to know is to take the classes. Woods encourages self exploration of such things. I was very very nervous my first day, but i stayed comfortable in class. I loved my asl teacher. He was great. I love asl, so yes i was eager to want to learn more. I went into asl career studies. This class is an introduction to the field. It covers many things that we'll get more deeper into as the years pass. As McCray spoke, I came to realize that my major was perfect for me. I never thought of the aspects it included in social science and other areas I loved to be an interpreter. The things it took to understand. The major actually incorporated many things I love into one thing. I was excited!

As the semester rolled on, it got hard. It was hard because I was working at walmart, my work at home job, and my work study postion. Walmart became too much after a month. They weren't adhering to my school schedule. I was already behind. Midterms came....I looked at my midterms versus my work schedule. There was no way i could continue this way. I would fail at one or the other because They were working me every night before class. I had to stay up through class then do my work at home job til nine pm. After that I was exhausted. I had been up since eight am the day before since I had to still do my work study job on tuesdays and thursdays. I didn't have any time for school work. I am sad i quit. They were about to change my position and schedule, but I just couldn't do it any longer. I called in then quit.

I passed my miterms then tried to catch up in school. It was hard. I caught up in asl careers easily. It was mostly a lecture class with some reading in for hearing people only and american ways. She did have other things for us, but my teacher understands the student mind all too well. She knows there are many things we won't do if we don't have to. History,t here was no way to get caught up on the reading. I missed many assignments. I did well on my miterm. He worked with what he could with me. I was utterly failing math, and still am. I just literally can't understand my teacher. She doesn't separate personal and professional life all too well. I've heard more about her personal life than about math. I've recently gave up on her. I'm going to have to learn all six chapters on my own and seek some sort of help next week so i can pass in some sort of way, or go out in a blaze of glory.

I have sort of a blessing and a curse right now. I'm not working because my work at home job works with colleges. The colleges don't need our promotion right now. Obviously cause of the holidays. So my only money is whatever is left on my work study. Yet this has given me the chance to catch up on school in what capacity i can. It lets me do my research this week so i can have my essay done on the first. (Yes i k now its close, but its been sorta rough with the rest)

other good news is that my school understands how rough the first semester can be. If i don't utterly fail the semester but fall below a 2.0, the school will give me one more semester to prove myself. IF i get the 1700-1800, I owe the school then I can go next semester. If not, i have to find a college that has asl 2 next summer so i won't fall behind. hte key to all my classes so i don't fall behind is keeping up my asl classes. As long as i pass asl 1-5, I may still graduate in 2014. I've become determined though that it doesn't matter if i have financial aid that I have worked five years to get this far. I will pay what it takes to graduate out of my own pocket. Life is tough, but i'm tougher.

As for now, i'm focused to do what it takes to pass and making sure i'm settled with everything i need this time before I start school again. The way school began this semester was just a lesson of what needs to be done before i start school. I gotta have everything set before hand because there's not much time for anything else once i start. My major is not easy. Its quite complex in its own way. McCray prefers it that way. I can understand it. Much is laid on our hands once we leave. We represent many things. Sadly those without training never know or learn this. They just feel they are good enough then attack the field. I don't want to be that way. Many Deaf have suffered at their hands, especially in education. many school systems will take someone with less skills if it includes paying less money. It makes that child's education suffer.

I am job hunting, but not actively. The colleges need temporary workers while the students are gone. We have three bookstore companies here. I think i got potential for work over the holidays. My work at home job will return then during the summer I can get a real job that will pay what i need.

I need to go. have a great day

an email

o_O Oops wrong blog!! I removed what i put in here cause i know this automatically posts to my facebook

hording

So okay julie watches this hoarder show on tlc and a&e. I'm sorta hooked now. Not cause its shocking....but cause i know it could be me. My aunt Karen was her own type of hoarder. I know i get some of it from being around her. She always says i may need this for here or there then later throws it away or gives it away. I prefer giving since it doesn't feel wasted. I use to call myself a packrat, which isn't much different. Michael helped me take notice to my habits and helped me try to let go. He'd say things like "Janay! You don't need a receipt from McDonald's from three months ago unless you are going to throw it up now and say it made you sick." Sometimes the strangest things take my notice :P I know I still have the tendencies to want to buy and be prepared for what may happen then buy cause I'm stressed out. The past year has taught me I can't ever be prepared for anything or everything that may happen....cause the unexpected happens first. I just accept it and go on.

I have habits I've created to stop prevent hoarding or buying in general. I convince myself I'm broke without money or if i buy something then I'll not have money for some object i feel I need. It only goes wrong when my stress levels are overpowering. I work on them the best I can.

I also know i can't stop it. When i leave a place, you'll find me sorting through things to see what i need or don't....then you end up with tons of things getting given away or thrown out hte door cause I don't see the point. i do horde crafts. I want to craft again, but I haven't stayed in one place long enough or i was working too much at ACT. I hope to start on them next year once I have a desk to place them on :p I refuse to do them on anything but a desk. haha. I sometimes horde other things, but i'm not as bad as I use to be. I'd take in anything. I TRY to think of do i need it now. If i don't feel I'm in the right mindset, I'll pass it by cause I hate getting things then later thinking "Why did i even want this". I let go easier, but I still am afraid of becoming a hoarder. Those shows remind me of how bad it could get if I don't keep a watch on it.

School is finally here!

So a lot has been going through my head since orientation last weds. I mean go onto this campus after all these years of trying to become just an asl major alone. Its kinda cool to talk with other students and hear "What major are you?" "ASL" "Really?" "Yeah." "Me too!" Just being on the Woods campus is like being told you finally made it....the feeling of finally being somewhere with my major that I worked hard and struggled the past year to get to then finally have others in the same major around me just feels awesome. One girl has taken a liking to me thats a double asl major like I am. She'll approach me when she sees me. Its kinda cool. Makes me kinda miss adams and angles cause the familiar is always good to have around. Orientation was good. Took care of a lot of business and learned about that whole greek thing (always wanted to understand the point). I thought about rushing but then I thought about the next year. Its not the best idea right now since it requires commitments I can't do. I'll still be active for my lead points to keep my lead scholarship, but I'm going to end up with about two part time jobs and one that could go either part time or full time...part of me doesn't want to wait on walmart cause i need to take care of bills and just get back on my feet to where I'm comfortable....though the truth to that is I'll never be settled til about march 2011 since I have a lot to take care of. XD who knows maybe I"ll never settle. I mean the longest i've lived in one place was high school! haha.

So today was the first day of school. I stayed up catching up on undercover boss. >.< yeah I know don't stay up late. I woke up and got ready for school. Got to class late since I don't move near campus til friday....so i'm like thirty or so mins away. Parking is hellish! I was at the end of my asl class, since first day isn't the full hour. I walked in and a girl was talking in the back of the room, so i thought she was the teacher then i noticed all the students looked forward to the front of the room. She was the teacher's interpreters. It was cool though. I chose Woods for the fact that they are involved, have a deaf community nearby to give opportunities while I study, small town, and a ton of other reasons. I sit down and fill out my name for attendance. Teacher explains the syllabus and teaches us "class dismissed" then shows us "you want class dismissed" in sign and we were to answer yes or no in sign. :P I answered no. haha. The teacher kinda laughed then released the class. I went to find my car to move it. I park it at walmart, which is a block away. Why? Cause its 50 bucks for a parking sticker! OMG! I'm cool with walking til winter. haha. I come back then go to the commuter student louge. I chatted with a lady for a few mins then tried setting up my wireless for school while listening to these girls talk. I tried being nice at a few points, but I felt like they just felt they were above others. its like gamers with newbies....freshmen are still learning and its their first day, give us a chance....and don't act like you're above freshmen cause you didn't take all your general/common courses in your early years. Next came my algebra 2 class. I got lost cause the same person was in there from earlier. (majority of my classes are in the same building cause its the building where they do ASL) They asked me what class then they told me it was the right one. I went in. We laughed and wrote which dwarf we'd be. (Yes lina we sung small world after all too XD j/k ) Then we all talked about ourselves to introduce us to the class. Seemed ot be a good group of students. She talked about the class and what to expect. Next I went to ASL Career, which is to help introduce us to the deaf culture and what it is to be an asl interpreter. Its taught by a Woods professor/ASL advisor who is an interpreter outside the campus. She told us about class and what to expect. She spoke about issues in deaf culture and the interpreter world that we would discuss that I knew nothing about. very interesting controversies out there. I spoke with her about STLCC classes and Interships future wise. I know most will look to getting their internship in mo. I'm thinking I may speak with ETSU or the medical people in ne tn for my internship. Who knows. I won't make plans til I get to that point. I had my last class, history.  History teacher is fun and has a good sense of humor. Still not as good as garman, haha. We introduced ourselves. I got tired of it by then so he asked my name and i said, "I'm bob! I have no home town!" then took it another direction. We discussed the classes and I got to find out what I need to do to have a lower priced book. He doesn't like it being 150 for a book set.

I've actually been nervous about my choice to go into ASL til today. As i went into my two classes, I realized it combines a lot of things i love; interacting with people, communicating and working with people, social sciences (mostly psy and sociology), and various other things. I'm actually excited for what I want to do in school. I get to do everything I love and constantly learn new things even through my career. It's an endless adventure to me. I can't wait to get fluent then volunteer in the community or at the school for the deaf. I can't wait to explore what area I prefer and so forth. Its just exciting cause there is no limit as an interpreter at what I can do! The world really is my oyster....eat up! XD

Family

I was thinking about this past year earlier today. Since Jan'09 I've gone through a lot more than in the past...and a year ago I decided to move to mo. My family has been great about it. They have expressed how they felt but still supported me through the process. Mom would say things like, "I don't like it and don't agree, but if it makes you happy." there are things they could have done to keep me back in tn and not doing what I have been doing. they could have not helped support me, but they have. They have been there the whole way doing the best they can. 

I'm very thankful for the family and friends that I have. I hate that i make them go through so much shit, but I"m glad everyone, even doug, is there for me. Yes, I know doug can seem like an asshole or get on people's nerves cause he says things before thinking about how it'll effect others. But, I think he is doing far better than he use to. Maybe the word thing will be fixed, who knows.

As I go forward, I just hope that I can give back to them as they've given to me through this journey. It just reminds me that I have family and am loved. I have amazing friends, like angles and adams, that support me and remind me to do what makes me happy. They also say and do things that make me laugh and chill through my day. Its amazing that I'm 1200 or so miles away, but my friends can still make me smile

I appreciate you all. Thank you.

Time marches on

So lets see i've been here ten days or so :: looks at a calendar :: yeah about ten days. Figure i should update. Getting here, my boss let me have the day off cause i told her about not sleeping well for two days due to packing. I knew I needed a second job cause I'm just not making enough to catch up on bills and live on my own. I can't live on campus cause it'll cost me about 500 or so a month to share a dorm and eat crappy food...i ate at tucker lunch hall...it is crappy tasting. I also needed to house hunt. I thought job first til ju's strange neighbors started yelling or banging on ju's door. One guy actually has a sign on the door that if he hears noise he'll call the cops...he's ju's next door neighbor....-_- He just had to be her neighbor. One guy wouldn't stop knocking all night and we didn't know why. So house hunting came up. I started looking around fulton. We learned something in one day....we have bad credit and you can't job hunt with students coming in for college....makes it harder to get a place cause all the landlords think "i got better options on the way". So we gave up and started to look into ways to help julie with bills and such. I figured i can look later when they are a bit more desperate. hehe. I thought i could help Ju with my paycheck but i haven't been doing outbounds....so >.> my paycheck for about two weeks is gonna be say maybe 100 bucks or less. Me and julie started pulling up options cause her landlord started pulling out crazy fees while i was gone! Julie gave up then found a place in fulton for me then decided to take the option she had in STL, even though she doesn't feel she can live in stl cause she thinks she lacks qualifications. (Don't think she remembers they are training for the upcoming tax year atm at the saint charles office.)

I went to the fulton place. I talked to them. its 250 mo room for rent with utlities and internet. Its decent and ten miles from school. This helps since jeff city takes 1/4th a tank one way. Wonder if its legal to go 10 under the speed limit in mo >.> cause 70 mi/hr takes a lot of gas it seems compared to 60 mi/hr. This fulton idea would save me on gas since I don't make much right now. I hate that call center work has its seasons....really sucks when you go from making 3k/mo to 400/mo or less.(I could make more but my dedication sucks at time as does my sentences when i speak...its based on performance and attendance...i suck at attendance) I've taken it. They mentioned having spare rooms. I talked with them. They were willing to take ju in. I brought her by the next day and arrangements were made.

Before i went to see the fulton place, I got a call from walmart in Jeff City. The next day, I went for two interviews then was offered the job the day after. This I wouldn't mind traveling to Jeff City for. It also has potential for moving forward to the fulton walmart, which is a block from school, cause of what wire (walmart's hr system) offers internally. I go monday for my final paperwork. I pray everything works out right. Whats great is its third shift. I can go to work, go to school, come home and sleep, do homework, go to work...and do it all over again. My only thing is figuring out how to keep my WaH job.

School is going well. I may have to drop english since its a T TH class and all my others are MWF. I can take it in the spring. My main concern is my ASL classes more than general. Generals can be taken at any school. I can even do them as distance classes. I am fine with financial aid as long as i keep 12 credits....i have a 2500 award that requires me to be full time. I'm a bit scared of starting school cause its finally at the serious point, but it is what comes first before everything else. I will sacrifice whatever I have to so i can pass. I've worked too hard to get this far.

Thats my story and i'm sticking too it :p

Take care. Time to watch the bleach movie on tv then to bed. I got sunday off as usual. May log into work to see if i get calls. -_- yeah i'm desperate to be working seven days straight. Really need to get back on outbounds. I think its cause of the moving and school starting that they think i'm unreliable. who knows.

Love your baby girl

So i'm back home in mo, which means i'll be blogging more often. The reason i blog is to let those i love know whats going on. Last night when i started out towards the long 12 hr trip, I thought about things...mostly..my mom cried when i left. My mom goes through a lot with me over the past ten years, but she's very strong and amazing. She's always been there all my life even though we didn't live with her our whole life. The past nine years has been hard and she's been there. She was there when dad told me not to come back home cause I wanted to help a friend instead of staying at my grandmother's to finish out my driving class. She didn't push me to go to tn at first. She understood we were young and 18. My friends and I wanted to have our own place and feel all adult...sadly we didn't understood what that entailed. After a week or two of teens doing crazy things, she took me back to tn/va since we couldn't get a place of our own. I stayed the summer with family then went to mom's in bristol in august to get a job. She taught me to drive then helped me get a license. She helped me as i struggled to get my first job then got one at sonic. (Its frustrating when mcd's says you don't have experience for them to hire you >.>)

Over the years though, I've learned a lot cause of my mom. If i don't know, I go to her and ask. She's always willing to give advice. She's patient as I discover my world and try to figure out what I want for my life. I tell people, with pride honestly, I am my mother's daughter. I mean that as in I am very much like my mother. Most would think this is bad, but my mom is a great person. She doesn't always make the wisest move but she does her best to follow her heart and live life to the best of her ability. She's helped me with so much over the years. She was there with a uhaul and my brothers when i went back to sc to go to g'ville tech and it fell through. She helped me get home when i went to cali and needed to return home cause something was found in my chest. (its still there >.>) She was there when Michael broke up with me to call nathan to tell him why i couldn't talk then stayed through the whole process. She was there on my stupid chattanooga run back in summer'07 when I wanted to start my asl degree before learning tn was dropping it. She helped me get my car and helped me get my apt in johnson city while I focused on work and finally starting on being serious about my asl education. She was there when I wanted to start at a school finally and went  applying. She was there when I started at ETSU and lost my job at ACT. She helped me learn about medical insurance and unemployment. She's helped me in finding out the medical issues I have and figuring out what they really were. She supported me when I moved to mo last august to see if the schools in mo were what i wanted for my education, since they have both associates and bachelors....which isn't common from what i've researched. She's still with me today as I journey to get to the point I've worked to for five years, starting my asl bachelors at an asl school. I've been through a lot of hell the past year, so it makes being at WWU truly worth it.

Mom has suffered and cried many many tears while still encouraging me through everything. She's the reason I have the hope I have and encourage others to dream without limits. Its why I use sl because I believe we shouldn't have limits, and second life is the world without limits. I stopped believing in the idea of settling for what i'm given and go for my dreams. The next four or so years (i'm a double major in asl and interpreting) will include many risks. I hope to be able to do it on my own....and without crazy roommates who are bipolar or having yapping dogs...well lina's crazy but i love her type of crazy. haha. Mom has given me to the tools i need for my future. Now i can step forward and do what i need to have the life i wish for.

We joke that i owe mom hundreds of thousands of dollars, but I owe mom everything for making me the adult I am and letting me grow instead of telling me what adult i should be. If i ever have kids, I wouldn't mind being the crazy mom she is cause she's an amazing mother. She says she regrets many things, but those things have made her who she is. As J Reu says, "Hindsight is a beautiful thing when you can look back and see what time can bring." Remember changing the past and regretting it changes who you are now and the life you have. ;) Never regret. Learn, enjoy, and smile that you lived well.

now to watch ju's crazy reality shows >.> or just chat on sl haha

Dysmenorrehea (don't read if you don't like personal stuff)

Okay so i've had an issue since I was a teenager. I suffered through its effects until jan 2001. I don't think its as bad as it is now. I just got weak and tired...sometimes dizzy. In 2001...I got depo, but wasn't diagnosed. Just sort of an accident that taking depo took care of it. I stayed on depo cause I felt better and didn't have a period. Yeah i became a depo fan. In late 2003, I missed my shot. I didn't have period but i sure as heck had the effects. Here's a fun image, me dragging myself across a carpet telling my sister how horrible she is cause she couldn't get up to get me ramen. My legs were too weak to work. Anything usually hip and lower usually runs out of energy. I'm a fighter, but somethings i can only take so far. I got tired of this mysterious issue and went to my new doc to ask for help. He sent me to an obgyn who told me i had dysmenorrehea...then dismissed it like it was nothing. He told me I had to stay on depo and i'd be fine. Roll forward to 2005, couldn't get my shot til i got back from cali! Every step is painful that I took to see the obgyn but heck i'm able to walk. My new obgyn called me a sissy too...I wanted to trade bodies with her >.> But anyway, you don't know how happy it does feel to be able to walk though when it hits and you don't have medication.

Roll forward to the present, been busy with different things. Kept trying but things got in the way of getting my shot since october. ugh >.> On and off for three weeks i been feeling funny then Thursday night... BOOM! Pain head to toe. It slowly starts to weaken me. Sunday I was on skype with some friends. The one we call Enigma, aka Eni, was like "whats wrong?" All i could get out was, "Pain lots and lots of pain." He and Emme headed to bed. I thought i was good cause last night I was doing well into the morning and i had distractions from small pain. But I got up and went over to mom this evening....yeah....lots and lots of pain along with weakness. It takes me too long to do anything cause my body doesn't have the ability to support me with the pain and weakness.

You'd think by now i'd be wise after everything else i been through and knowing this shot would keep this from happening....especially sine i've had since oct to get it. This is not a fun issues. I'm dealing with it now. Sometimes though I think there is something else effecting it that makes it worse than it is. Who knows. I have one medical issue no doc seems to be able to figure out. I just from time to time get dizzy or unable to move. Feel like I'm going to pass out. No reason sometimes. I've been tested for many things and come out cleared. So who knows. I'm just a medical screw up

patterns

I've not been doing things lately i'm suppose to and i was taking notice of something. I know that how i treat myself is how i feel about my life. I notice when I"m in tn, i don't take care of myself. I hide out, don't be clean and become a hermit. When I'm out of here and in mo, yeah i'm a hermit in the way i've always been. Its a good style hermit. i still take care of myself and do my best to take care of myself.

So when i think about this, i just wanna go back. I hate seeing myself like this, but theres nothing I can really do about it right now. I've got business that comes first and the rest has to wait. Especially figuring out how to get ju's left over stuff to mo...may have to take what i can and come back for the rest in oct. Theres really no choice in what I need to do. I should be back in mo by august...not like there's no choice on returning either. haha. Didn't go through the hell of the past year and get into WWU just to sit looking pretty. School starts august 18th.

I'm trying to make the best of moms but its just not home for me. It hink thats a big factor for me. Oh well. we're gonna go see gabby today. Hopefully get my oil changed soon. I'm going to work on paying a few things then head back. Probably will be beginning of angst before i get back cause i sorta want my cell phone to work first ;)

anyway i'm off. thats my thought of the day. Now to be lazy >.>

What I love

So i been thinkin on some things lately cause they occur and I was talkin to my online friend cara about it the other night when we were discussing her hubby.





The above videos I like for the reason of there is so much passion for what they want. They are willing to fight for what they want, even if there's a chance of losing...at least they tried everything they could. I love passion in people. Its amazing what it does to them and what they do for what they are passionate about.

Cara and I were talking about men and what we like. We both agreed men must be intelligent. We both loved a good nerd, but many of them tend to be easily scared. She married someone who was smart but he went for what he wanted. He chased his desires. He knew what he want and he was always honest. She loved it about him. She said his only downside is he didn't know how to use a computer and didn't care to find out how. She said with all he offers the last bit was small in comparison to who he was. She also talked about the desire to be wanted...every woman wants to know she is wanted or else she feels abandoned. I think its true. Its a good feeling. For me the idea of feeling wanted comes from many things. Mine takes a little angle away from cara at that point. She goes by how she feels and emotion of the other person. Its actions of a person for me. The things they do in my worst times or when i do things against them shows me their desire to want me. The worst times that we have are a true test of who we are and the relationships we have.

I want someone who knows what they want, are passionate, understanding, strong minded, reasonable, honest, kind, good hearted, has a great personality, a sense of humor, a lot of patience, and many other things that are required to keep up with me. They need two key things too.....the desire to fight and ability to take up a challenge. I can be a bitch and a challenge to handle. Thats where the patience comes in handy. I have things that are unstable about me, mostly stress when it makes me emotional. I lose my ability to reason during those times. The two key things help during that time cause I can just walk off and say screw it or question them in every way with my analytical mind. It'd be nice to have someone who understands my loves of dance, music, and crafts. Just....don't want them to do crafts....thats creepy. Okay pottery is fine but you take up scrap booking and we gotta talk about your preferences in life. haha. I love how it feels when someone knows me and understands me well. I feel so comfortable and at home. I feel there's nothing to worry about. I also know they will be able to handle my unreasonable times and bring my ass to the ground, like my best friend does.....but she kinda hits me with random stuff that hurts....less pain would be good. :D

Over most of my life, i've chased people to create friendships and what not with me. I did what i could to please them. I even used money in elementary school to bribe into friends for a day. I became possessive in middle school of those friends i had....which was few cause we moved too much to keep them and i'm the worst letter writer known to man. I'll write then never send it.I still have my forwards for where i live now. Never mailed them. Thats why email is awesome to me. Over the past few years, I've given up chasing, impressing, and what not. I just don't care. It really doesn't matter anymore what others think. You accept me or walk off. When it comes to a significant other, it would be obvious cause i'm not going to chase. I'm going to be me and enjoy life. Its their choice of what they will do....just be prepared of how i may react. If you can handle the storm, you may be able to hang on. I've scared a few men over the years on purpose. They walked off far too easily. Guess not everyone can see through the crap i throw out there. hehe.

And yes, I test everything....even when no one knows it.

talk about getting screwed

I thought i was having a bad day with my sister til i got home. Yoniel, aka Johnny, was rushing through the apt complex as i was getting ready to park. I stopped in fear of getting hit. Johnny parks his car. I park mine then walk over to his. I walk over to his car to tease him about his driving. Turns out he's stressed out. his wife is threatening to take the kids out of the country cause he was having sex with girls and dating. Keep in mind, she's doing the same. She's threatening restraining orders, child support, taking the children to another country, and all kinds of things. Chick has got some control issues. Johnny can't seem to calm down from this.

His wife just seems to take over his mind and emotions with her threats. They are empty legally cause they aren't legally divorced or separated. He doesn't have to do a lot cause of it. I was checking the state laws. At the same time, he isn't fun and doesn't relax anymore cause of it. I feel so bad for johnny. He can do what he wants, but his wife just attacks him once he's starting to enjoy life. Its like she enjoys making him miserable.

good news!

I have calls every day just cause i went and had my resume on career builder! send out hopes and prayers i get something soon. I honestly can't job hunt this week cause of school work. I can only do my best inbetween catching up. Getting sick for two weeks really messed me up and its not easy to catch up with history as i thought.

Oh well. Other good news, I think I'm going to go to this country bar with my roommate and Ju this weekend. hehe. If anyone's watched julie clog, you know i'll be rolling on the ground or falling on a table laughing. I so wanna watch her dance to Devil went down to Georgia again! omg! that was hilarious. Though the posing later was just nuts!

anyway, time for bed. night!

OOOooOOOOoo

I just watched adding google gadgets to my blog...not a safe thing to hand me. I need to customize my blog first. Not sure what look I want yet. I guess I'll wait on all that. Maybe i'll forget about the gadgets by then. :: cackles ::

other things are getting better

whatever ju cooked has made me sick. The toilet is my best friend. I haven't left the bathroom for hours. Teaches me not to eat her cooking. Really need to get Yoniel to teach her to cook. I'm just thankful my lungs feel better...even if my ass won't in the morning. >.>

In other news, I been getting job calls since I started using career builder again. Thats the first time since I graduated high school that its worked! lord...haha.  I even got an interview just a few hours after I sent out a resume. Thats pretty good! I've been expanding my search and finding more resources. I'm using monster, craigslist, careerbuilder, and missouri career source (the one stop page). One stop is the best resource cause its a state page. its just not easy to search cause i have a wide variety that i'm willing to do.

Oh yeah still haven't done history homework in the sense of turning it in. Would have succeeded if it wasn't for that damn porkchop. I might as well pull my bed in here....haha. I'll turn in what i can tomorrow then tell the teacher all thats gone on so she can open the quizzes. I need to do english tomorrow too. I have to do week 2 of history tomorrow. Sunday i'll do this week, week 3, of history. oh joy the fun of balancing school, unemployment, and job hunting! Sometimes I wish I could do it julie's way, just hope a job drops into my lap and says "we'll pay yah good!" Of course we all know Ju's way doesn't always work.

anyway, I'm off. later.

discovering

Lots going on mentally. I think more goes on mentally than physically lately. haha.

I'm singing. That may sound weird to most. I don't sing, i mean really try to sing. I've been doing that. I'm slowly becoming comfortable with life. I think the hardest thing for me is that life has been so rough the past few years that I can't relax. I've always had to be serious and take care of business. I'm a carefree person inside. I've never been able to let loose until lately. Its hard to break out of my hardshell. I've been trying. I've been forcing myself to do things i've held myself back from doing for years. I hope to eventually do that

Another fun thing is I'm learning a lot about Saint Peters MO. A lot of jobs and applications I get are from that city. I've been driving around Saint Charles county and exploring as much as i can while job hunting. I'm learning different routes and how to get around. I couldn't do that last time cause I was so afraid of my car. I really like it out here. Its going to make me sad when I have to leave. Julie getting rejected from Wentzville means we have to move to middle missouri. I am hoping we head out that way soon. I know either way I move out to fulton by august, but I was hoping that wentzville would be my excuse to come back when I wanted. I guess it is good since Julie will be closer. Columbia is thirty mins nw of fulton. Jeff city is south of fulton. Its funny that this town holds a lot of important things for the deaf community and interpreters, but no one knows where it is. It is literally an hour away from wentzville. There is probably a shorter route, but I get lost too easy. I'll just take 70 there then go south. It seems to be a nice little town. All that is really there are colleges.

I need to do history homework. I really love my life here. I'll upload pictures on facebook and myspace later. I have come to realize nothing will settle with mom unless I'm in the South. I like MO. I plan on staying here as long as life will let me. I won't know after college. That depends on what is going on in my life or where my career takes me. (Hopefully by then I'll be a bartender. who knows what will happen in 2014!)

Night!

unemployed

I quit monday. I couldn't do it. Those who know me, know i have a cyst in my chest. To be exact, its in the right main stem....which is sorta important cause thats where your air enters from your esophagus. It hasn't acted up since the summer of '07, in anyway i can remember. Sometimes its something small but doesn't interfere with my life. The ones i remember consist of not being able to breathe, going to the hospital for treatment, and not wanting to do anything else for the rest of the day cause it scares me shitless >.> see mom! I do care....

Anyway, I have had a sinus infection for a while. I thought thats whats been going on. Saturday I woke up not able to breathe. I couldn't move cause I worked 12 hrs. My legs hurt like hell from jumping up and down like a monkey. (Didn't stop hurting til monday!) I called out pretty much the whole weekend. I went back to work monday. I couldn't breathe when i tried to do anything. All I could do was sit. My job required me to catch the attention of others through my actions. Pops told me to go home. I went home then decided to quit. I realized that being out in the cold was causing me to be worse. It is true too. I've felt better today. I slept a lot, but I don't feel like crap and can breathe better. I hate that I had to quit. But...it was quit or die trying to make money. I'm not desperate enough to kill myself. I'll go back if it gets warmer. Otherwise, i'm good being without a job. Julie is gonna try to help me. I am trying to help her budget but she doesn't get how that works. Maybe we'll see eye to eye in time.

In other news, Julie got rejected from wentzville for not paying rent on time. We are going to head out to columbia, jeff city, and fulton this month and next so that we can try to sign up for rent. It'll probably be easier there. I thought i'd show ju William Woods to see if she liked it, but she is considering cosmetology school. We shall see what happens there. There are a few out in those areas.

Imma go take a bath then head to bed. its 3 am and ju has to be at work by 11 am. I'm working on make sure she isn't late anymore. I will job hunt and do school work out in Saint Charles while she's working. Hopefully i'll find a job soon.

Hope everyone is doing well. and mom stop worrying! I'm fine. If you want me checked, you can pay for me to see Dr Rossem, my ct scans, and all the other fun work they do to me for a month on my checkups. >.> ugh i hate being poked like i'm an alien.

later!

ugh...death of the Monkey dance!

this job is so going to kill me....i'm tiiiired! But, I need the money. I worked 12 hrs today. I have to dance like a monkey on mexico and mid rivers mall drive in saint peters every day. I can't do that! I mean hell...give me some days off or something! Fat chicks just can't do that

I also still don't have time for homework cause i'm tired. I'm also getting sick from the weather. I really doubt the guy that runs this liberty knows what its like to be a waver....ugh. I need to go to bed. Pops, head waver over at saint peters, isn't working. I have to work for him....my body is in sooo much pain right now. Its not my fault if i some how pass out on the side of mexico road tomorrow....I about fell into it today from exhaustion. Some people came by to see me act like a crazy fool (or monkey dance as i call it) and found me hugging the liberty tax sign, sitting down, and waving. oh! the guy that came by twice while he was at work yesterday and yelling "break it down!"...he came by today in his car then started jumping on the passenger's side and yelled "break it down". That guy is nuts.

anyway....bed! damn my body hurts.

downside to life

First off...I wanted to say what happened while waving today. I don't know if what they had on their car was legal...but...I was just being all strange and dancing funky to keep myself entertained and noticed like they want. I listen to the radio, so I don't do much but play with a sign on commercials. My post today was out on Mid Rivers Mall Drive in Saint Peters. I was playing with my sign cause I'm trying to learn how to sign spin. Sadly, I suck at being self taught. Next thing I hear over my music is a bull horn saying, "I love you!" Its gotta be pretty damn loud to play my headphones. I put down the sign i was holding and about fell over laughing. I continued practicing my spinning. I hear "Sping that sign!" it was so funny. I love a good sense of humor. I love seeing people be crazy or stupid. Just makes me laugh.

Tons of crazy stuff happened today when I was sign spinning. Wonder if I'll get in trouble for spinning that one guy in circles in the snow....he thought it was fun... hehe.

Anyway, I got home and thought for a bit. I'm behind in history cause I was sick last weeka nd other things going on. Mostly cause I was sick. Turns out I had a small sinus infection. Its starting to clear up. Tomorrow is thursday...homework is due friday. I haven't done anything cause I was hired on the fly. I have until sunday night to get everything done for both classes. I need to also email my teacher and tell her what is going on so i can get counted for last week. I have decided I have to put away my other activities and anything fun until I get caught up. After that, I still have to job hunt. Liberty isn't a permant thing. Its tax season only. In a month they will lower hours. That gives me a month to find a real job. I need to apply like crazy and try to be my best at interviews. I don't know why I'm bad at them. I hope maybe one is out there that does not wish to interview. Thats how i got verizon!

But yeah, life is gonna suck for a bit. In good news, Kristen is moving to missouri! I'm glad she decided to. She wants to attend a community college for a semester then go pre-vet at one of the schools in saint louis. She was going to go to Oregon, but that fell through. I offered her help here, cause I can't turn down a friend in need. Hopefully i'll get my phone back from shrub. Asked her to get it cause Shrub seems to be alright and has help. Just found out he got engaged to his on and off g/f. Suppose to get married this year. He doesn't need my help anymore. Kristen said she would pick it up. If not, i'll get mom to get it.

Its time to take my meds then to bed. I don't know if i work tomorrow. No one gave me my schedule. Ju has hers cause she's only at one location. I guess I'll have to check after I drop her off.

later!

Today!

Well....I got hired by liberty tax then worked from ten am to almost nine pm. Ju and I auditioned this morning. We will be working all the liberty taxes in saint charles county. So yeah....those who live in this area can watch my fat ass make a fool of myself. woot!

its good til i find a permanent job. Liberty tax doesn't keep most of their wavers past march. This liberty will work me full time. I have to balance school and job hunting with this. I may even work overtime from the sound of it. I may just carry my books with me when ju works earlier than me.

I'm going to rest. Ju has to be at work at nine am. I am still sick. i have to take my night meds. later

being sick kills your life

So I got a text from my roommate, Yoniel (sometimes i refer to him as Johnny). He was down at the ice house, so i figured why not. I went down there. I picked on him cause he was trying to get a woman, and ultimately failed. I go to the bars to just dance and have fun. I went up to the live band and danced around. I am thinking of going next weekend. Depends on how i feel. I had fun.

Today was bad though. I'm sicker than usual. I'm coughing like crazy and have diarrhea. Yeah, its gross...but its what is going on. I feel so bad right now. I gotta be at work in eight hours, but I am not alseep cause i can't breathe too well. I didn't get my homework done. I felt like shit each time i tried to read. I couldn't focus on my work. Well, I got english done except one assignment on the discussion board. I got jack shit done with history. I hope to catch up this week. I can't be behind in school again. It stressed me out too much last semester. Ugh being sick is going to drive me up the wall. I hate it.

I am getting severely tired. I think I am going to try to lay down. night!

i wish!

I was going to go out and have fun tonight. I been wanting to go dancing all week. But, I'm sick again. So, I'm stuck inside coughing my head off, half awake, and trying to do homework. So far, I got one assignment out of seven done. oh yeh! I have to have it all done tomorrow night though. This congestion is killing me.

The downside is i have been stuck at home all week cause I have not had any interview calls. Most of the ads this week were scams. I went to the mall yesterday to get applications. I will fill those out when I have the energy. School is first. I need to figure out how to do school during the week while balancing job hunting. Oh, i am going to try and be a liberty tax waver. I haven't done that in years. But, its work. They hire like crazy end of jan-march. They drop the bad wavers in march then hire back up in april. Its something til i find a real job. I interviewed for a new place in Saint Charles, Llewlyns. I really hope i get it. Seems a good place. They said it was just an intro interview and will be interviewing everyone next week.

My only really big pet peeve right now is that julie says she wants a job. I bring her applications, but she never fills them out. Every time I ask if she has it done when I turn mine in, she says, "I'll do it later." Jobs don't wait for you to be ready. Oh well. She got offered waver too, so that will get her off the couch and tv for now. She needs to remember to report her earnings and bonuses. Theres so much she needs to learn, but she thinks I'm being a bitch or bossy by telling her whats good to do. Advice from family is not something she takes. She takes it better from strangers.

anyway, i think I will lay down. I'm exhausted cause of being sick. I need to do my next reading assignment for english...if i wake up. Readjusting to starting school after moving isn't fun. I still have things to get from pin oak park too! oh well. I will do that when i have time.

Hope everything is going well for everyone!

feeling better

BJ came by. We joked, played pool, and watched movies. It was relaxing and fun. I'm feeling better. He always makes me  laugh so it takes off the stress.

blah

I'm becoming depressed. Its not cause of life. Its reasons I don't feel like naming. I'll deal with it and be fine later. Its nothing I can any do anything about.Hopefully I'll be okay soon.

I just started noticing I was doing things about how i was feeling that were wrong choices. I gotta break bad habits from long ago. It doesn' t help or deal with issues.

What am i doing? Living! Living well my friend....

So...its been almost a month since I updated. Guess i should. haha. It won't have everything cause I can't remember every detail, but I'll do my best. I decided to move back to missouri. I was so much happier in missouri than tennessee. Mom even agreed I should return. I found out that I could change my round trip ticket. I spent new years eve watching eddie izzard while preparing to leave. I decided that 2010 was my year and no one would take it away from me! I'm tired of playing the victim in life when I should be playing the champion/overcomer. I can't let my situations over take me. This is me taking charge of my life by going back to where I was happy. I left new years day and arrived jan 2nd in saint louis. The ride was interesting and scary at times. Some chick road with me all the way to nashville with lighter fluid and charcoal. You may think thats nothing....but she had matches she was playing with to burn toilet paper too! haha. I had a fun conversation with this one guy on the way to nashville. It got creepy when this old guy kept staring at me like a piece of meat....yeah....Nashville was alright. Just lots of waiting...as it always has been for the past five or so years. Nashvegas to STL was pretty quiet. I slept most of the way. I would wake up every so often. It was strange cause i was one of the few that was not headed to a military base! hehe. Now i know why those tickets were expensive. Tons of military heading out to a base in mo. Oh i did do something stupid, as usual. The stop before STL, i was hungry and got out to go to McD's....turned out they were closed. i ran out in 4 degree weather across a parking lot for a closed resturant...woot! go me!

I spent that morning waiting for Ju to wake up. She was at Yoniel's, aka Johnny, place living. I sat around the greyhound texting my friend bj, who lives out around hazelwood. Turns out he works night shift. He stayed up to chill with me til my ride got there. I found internet and got on that. Ju eventually called. I rode the train out to hanley station then waited in the cooooooold wind til Ju and Johnny got there. oh btw, he says to call him that. His name is close enough sounding to it. We road all the way to Lake Saint Louis while talking about how the living arrangements will work. I explained everything on my end while julie talked about where we were living. Its called Waterways. Very nice and quiet place, i must say.

I just spent the weekend relaxing. That monday I started job hunting and taking care of business. The week was kinda lazy. I didn't try as hard as I could have. But, there wasn't internet either. The week was nice cause it snowed. It was cold and around 10 or less. I didn't have many interviews. I mostly planned how to pay my bills when I got my financial aid, went to wentzville for housing, and decided with ju where we would be staying. She ended up at Johnny's over an incident where she was living. We really liked Johnny's and didn't have any luck anywhere else for two bedrooms. So we decided to stay. I would pay whatever to help ju since it was more than half of what she gets. I don't really have that many bills to pay anyway. Just the traffic stuff, getting my car fixed, and a loan...well along with my cell and rent. Johnny's been real helpful with showing me where things are and how to get around. I've learned a lot. I've been using hte club house for exercise. Oh yeah. I had this whole date thing lined up. I had two dates. They backed off. Something about me being different than girls here. Pretty much got scared. One guy thought i was just unsure or some shit. I mean this guy wanted me to give all to him and i ain't been on one date or known him that long? You so gotta be shitting me. I did eventually meet up with the guy. Oh lord his personality is fucked. I mean you sit and want some chick to commit to you but you have no interest in them at all? He should just consider fuck buddies or something. Cause no girl is gonna want anything more with something like that. But, my friend BJ heard my complaints. He offered to take me to avatar. I thought it was a friend thing. BJ is sweet and awesome! he proved it that night. He drives from hazelwood, while others say i live too far away, to the theater near shopNsave on the o'fallon side of where I live. (Oh yeah. one small area where I live is o'fallon and the rest is Lake Saint Louis. I use to live in the O'Fallon area in the trailer park) So, BJ gets there really early then buys my ticket! I've learned in life that somethings you can't refuse...cause i tried. "I have my money. I'll get the ticket. I am only ten mins away." "no. i'm buying it so you will have it when you get here." Wasn't going to argue. I get there. BJ is waiting. We talk about anime a bit. I just learned the day before t hat he loved anime. I told him anime was the magic word in my life. haha. I love cartoons, but i love anime more! I'm such a kid inside. He asks me to choose where to sit. I never had that option before. My friends have their preferences, so i've never cared. So i sat in the middle of the theater, literally. He sat two seats away. Btw, bj has gotta be like six foot tall or something. Damn i'm short! He doesn't have much room when he sits. haha. We talk and laugh. We make bad jokes until the movie starts. BJ gets comfy and moves the chairs then lays his head in my lap. I'm pretty layback so we just talk every so often during hte movie. He makes a lot of comments about random things in the movie, but I dont hear most of them. I spend most of the night laughing. We even chilled after the theater. It consisted of him getting in my little cavy, which i have cause i'm short. He's stuck with his knees in his chest and complains how small my car is. I laugh then drive him around hte parking lot then back to his car. He makes fun of my car more then gets in his. I figure I should be fair. I get in his car then talk about how its not right for short people. We have fun joking around for maybe an hour or so. It was a great night. I hope to go chill with him again. Oh and Johnny is separated from his wife, which is why he has rooms for rent. His kids came over. It was fun to meet them. Yohan is his own little world at two. You have to watch him close cause he's a fast one! Katherine is a creative little five year old. Shes emotional like most little girls, but she's tough and knows what she wants!

This week was fun! went to interviews but I caught up with minda weds!! We went out to icehouse cause they said they have karoke. That was wrong! Some other place on the other side of wentzville was hiring unexperienced bartenders. I went down there, low and behold it was karoke! They interviewed me. They thought i had a nice and fun personality, but hated that I had no bar experience. The manager gave me some great advice though. I'm determined to become a bartender. Mom has issues with that, but its a good and fun job. It makes good money too! So, why not! I love to have fun and get others to have fun. Anyway...I went back to minda after the interview then stole her purse and ran to the front. Minda comes up to me and says "There's a purse snatcher here!" I laugh while Ju comes up to join us in the front of the bar. The best thing comes on, cause it shows minda what i been trying to tell her about my sister. It was Devil went down to Georgia!! omg. if you know ju, you know she gets up and does her own version of clogging to any song like that. I told minda, "watch ju." She nods, not knowing what i mean til two mins later. Ju starts out bouncing around her seat then starts stomping. It gets to the intense parts of the song. Ju is up out of her chair and clogging her heart out. rofl. Minda about fell out of her chair laughing. She couldn't believe Ju was doing this in a small space in a bar. I told minda at the end of the song, "This is why we bring ju out to bars and clubs." Minda laughed and agreed. The rest of the night was hilarious just cause Ju was there. I went up to do Behind blue eyes by the Who. I started out til ju wanted to join. Ju has a low education level and can't read words right. hehe. So we're singing....well i'm trying....but i keep falling over laughing. Ju is completely into the whole singing thing. I was embarrassed at first cause I've never been to or done karoke irl. I've watched it in second life...and thats it. With ju up there, I was no longer embarrassed but i wasn't singing either. I was bent over at my waist laughing. rofl It was great! Minda and I spent the night just watching ju. She is pure entertainment.At the end of hte night, they played some dance mix. Ju started voguing! i was like "OMG" cause i haven't seen that since i was a kid! She was all over the joint too. She was even up in a chair and throwing her self in sexy poses over the chair. If she really knew what those poses were, i bet she wouldn't have done them. All i could think was "that girl has watched too many music videos." I loved the whole night though.

oh another event from this week was when the cable man came to hook up the internet. I was the last person he expected from what he said. He said most in the area tend to be stuck on theirselves. We talked about all kinds of things; sex, tats, books, movies, or whatever came to mind. It was fun. Man has the strangest tat in an interesting place. He thought I'd think it was strange. My reaction was it was interesting. I mean you gotta think of what it looks like. I just didn't like the fact he had an author's face tatted to his back. Thats a little out there on the fandom for me. I got my authors i love, but i doubt i'll tat them to my back. Oh yeah we also discussed tats we regret. Well he regretted. I told him ones i was going to do when i was young that i was glad i never had the money to do now. haha. So glad there's no "Exit Only" sign tatted to my ass! rofl. That was one of hundreds of ideas i had when i was younger. The cable guy said when he left, "This has made my day. You are not normal." So far, I've learned i'm not normal for mo. this is good and bad. So far its bad cause i haven't gotten a job! Oh well. I'm going to start being determined and pushing it. I have to have one starting feb. I do have a temp service putting in info for me. I think i'm going to start hitting STC (Saint charles county) place to see what work they have.

Lets see for this week, who knows. It feels like i've been here for a month! i haven't really. Onlyl two weeks, but its been awesome! Katherine is in visiting. She's a handful cause she is a bundle of energy. But, I think he's got her under control. She's still dealing with the whole separation. Some days its good for her and others its not. Me and ju have to get backgrounds for Waterways and Wentzville done. Minda is helping me get my car looked at to be fixed. Its drivable but i want it back in good condition. Lots going on in general. I'll try to stay updated.

I gotta get to my school stuff. I think english was due and i got too caught up to notice. I'm going through my homework and job hunting stuff today. That is priority. I got my stuff from my old place in Pin Oak...well most of it. We'll get the rest later. i still have to fix and sort that too. No rest for the weary! oh and i'm sick too! so that doesn't help. damn sinuses!

Hope your day is well!

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I'll catch up on rl when i can. I know mom's like "what are you doing????" haha.

I should get home. Looks like I maybe at the bar tonight or something. May just stay home. Roads are icy at night.